Sunday, June 17, 2012


السلام عليكم 

I will remember this day, 
The day when I walked through the streets. The day when I was at somewhere I had never been. The day when I walked alone and tried to find something I deserve. 

I feel so grateful surrounded by people who care about me. But today I feel more, I feel that I should spend more time with them. We don’t know how many time we waste until they’re gone. 

I don’t want to regret anything about them. 
Someday, my mum and dad will leave me alone. Nobody will understand me like they do. They are always the reason why I cry. I know I’m not a good daughter, I don’t give any contribution to my family. I have nothing to give, I always ask for everything I think I deserve. But yes, I do not deserve anything. 

People deserve the best goal for the best thing they did. 
Me? What I’ve done is nothing. So far, the best thing I did is my skripsi. I don’t even know whether it deserves an A or not, but I did it by myself. Happy to know that you can do something by yourself. 

I feel so small. 
Today, I feel like someone who deserves nothing. I knew my capacity when I met many people in that building. I went to the 16th floor, to meet some people I never knew before. What a day. It’s not the first job test and interview, but it drives me crazy. I got through the hard stages. Hard to be well organized in anything I did today. I messed it up! God shows me that arrogance and ignorance are the things I have. 

That’s a big company in this country. 
I was so nervous, that’s normal. No matter what position you expect, if the company is that big, you will get nervous. Ya, that’s me. 

I have that, tawakal. 
Last year, God sent me a gift named tawakal. Means we may try hard but God takes the decision. I do believe that God always plays fair.  If I get failed, there will be another building to go. I'll wear better stilettos, the higher one. But, if I get that job, that’s my luck, and of course thanks to God. 

Written on June 13 2012

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Lovely Family!!!

السلام عليكم 






All pictures by mas Budi
June 9 2012 in Batu

Karina Got Married!

السلام عليكم

Attending my cousin's wedding, Karina
Almost all members of our BIG family came to Batu
We had a very good time, and Karina looked super beautiful with those wedding dresses
Happy to see this couple!!!